5. Bulimia is not Anorexia

It's important to say, that Bulimia and Anorexia it's not the same thing. On one hand you have an eating disorder where  stop eating and when you do it's just a small portion of food. On the other hand, you have another eating disorder where you spend a long period with out eating, and when finally eat, you eat way more than you can to vomit it later.

Mostly Bulimics that I met in life didn´t look skinny. Fiscally they all looked fine, and some are them where even chunk, even those who where struggling with Bulimia for years. 

In fact, my weigh fluctuated a lot when I was living with this illness. But the thing is; in my worse period of Bulimia when I used to purging 5 to 7 times per day, I gained 8kilos. I gained pounds, I gained way more fat in my body. However when I was eating less and purging less I was 10kilos down from this mark.  This is an important alert to everyone. You can´t judge a bulimic by her/his physical appearance. You can´t related how skinny or how fat he or she is to hisr/her own health.

There are no rules. The person can be a fat, living the worse case, purging 10 times per day, or be skinny in the same situation.  In most case, Bulimics don´t look like an anorexic person. It doesn´t mean they don´t need help, and It doesn't mean neither that they are fine.  Physically and mentally they are suffering.




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4.How Bulimia can kill

I never believed that I could die from Bulimia. I though it was a sensationalism from people who was trying to help me. I wasn’t even skinny enough to die from it. So I never listened to this comments. I didn’t have the body of an anorexic girl.

In my mind, only anorexic girls could die from eating disorder. Not me, an average bulimic, who the weight was fluctuating up and down. However Bulimia kills two times more than Anorexia.

One of the big differences between Bulimics and Anorexics you can see its appearance. Mostly Bulimics doesn’t look very skinny like Anorexics. Some times, they can hide this illness from their own family for years. The same doesn't happen with Anorexics. When someone loses a lot of weight  it is easily notice that something is wrong. On the other hand, It’s harder to see a Bulimic hospitalized. People compare their health status with their gain and lost of weight. What is an enormous mistake when are you talking only about Bulimia.

Although Bulimics can look pretty normal on the outside, inside their bodies has the level of potassium unbalanced, and it’s missing some important nutrients too. Overall their passing trough some big issues and their mind are over stressed.

The risks of a heart attack is higher. The consequences can be death or a in other cases some girls ended up been saved from death but had to live paralyzed for ever.  


The other way of death is when the stomach ripped, it sadly can happen after a person eat a lot of food and forces it to vomit.

Another consequence is to be suffocate from your own vomit. Bulimics can eat so much with out even bitten it right, that purging it all out can be a serious risk too.

I had Bulimia for 8 year and I lost some hair and damaged 2 teeth, one teeth I couldn’t even saved. I feel terrible about it, but the true is. I was lucky. I was very lucky, because in every 10 girls with Anorexia, one dies. And in every 10 girls with Bulimia 2, to 3 dies!

3. Addicted to Bulimia

There are some serious addiction in the world, there are not necessary toxic, but can destroy and control your steps. Gamble for example. All over the world we hear about people who loose everything and can´t stop playing. Bulimia is not different, but you are gambling if your own life.

In front of my friends I used to eat only small portions of food. I pretended to be satisfied and to control myself in public. However I would feel very nervous every time that I had to face food out of home. I was ashamed about being bulimic. I didn’t want my friends to know about it. Even eating small portions of food, it was very hard to keep the lunch or the dinner inside me. But I pretended to be someone normal, and didn´t had the courage to share it with anyone. Inside me I couldn’t wait to be back at home to eat a whole package of biscuits to fulfill my emptiness and to get rid of the guilty in mind, pushing all it out.
Bulimia became my addiction, my ecstasy, my cocaine. I couldn´t live with out it. Yes, addiction, I couldn´t find better word to describe it. I was a slave from this cycle. I used to need it so much, and I would repeat over and over, every day, even knowing that I was doing something really bad.

I´m not sure when something that we often do, become an addiction. What I know is that, one day you wake up thinking you can stop it, but you can´t, in the other day you try harder, and you still can´t, and you see yourself in a situation that you feel it´s impossible to get out. My body used to beg me for the sensation of pleasure and relief. I though I could control what to keep into my body, but was Bulimia who used controlled my life. 

And people around me could never understand, that as much I want to be back to normal, as much I wish to be stronger than Bulimia, I couldn´t. People judges that you are not trying enough when you are trying more than you can. I would feel depressive, a loser, because I wasn´t capable to deal normally with food. However, in a world where no ones can feel what you are feeling, Bulimia seems the only scape. And like any other addicted I said to myself for several times “ This time, will be my last time doing it”


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2. The secret of having Bulimia

I used to live a secret live. I didn´t want anyone to find out about my illness. For several times I preferred to be at home eating a bunge of things instead of going out with my best friends, to later on, free me from those calories and from the pain of life in own bathroom.

My heart used pump quicker as the minutes passed by. Feeling the food in my stomach always used to make me nervous. As the years passed my metabolism started to work very slow. I was capable to keep the food inside me for about 2 hours before been digested, but a bit before that, I used to vomit it all.

My lies and my tricks to hide it from my family had to be improved. They were aware about my situation, however I always lied saying that I had stopped. I didn´t want to disappoint them, and for many times I purged away from home. I purged in plastic bags and trough it in someone´s bin.


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1. My overview of Bulimia

Bulimia is an eating disorder, where you feel extremely hunger and your stomach seems to be a deeply whole, that permits you to fill it up with whatever you want . I would say, it's an ox's hunger  followed by the relief vomiting.
Although purging is very disgusting for most of people, a bulimic can find it very relieved. It's her voice of liberty, almost compared to an orgasm!
I'm not exaggerating when I link in my mind the act of vomiting to some kind of pleasure. If you are thinking to help someone with this disorder it will make it easy if you try to understand it first. You need to leave all your judgment behind and you need to stop thinking that this disorder is only related to the desire of a perfect body


Yes, I agree that, most of the time this illness start with an obsession to be a slim figure. However, as the time goes by, bulimia starts to play in every field of your life.

Bulimia turns into a scape from every deception and every little problem that you have to face.
I´m not a doctor neither psychiatrist, but I've had this illness for almost 8 year. Now a days I'm 26 years old, and I have been fine for almost 5 years now. I realized that, most of people has a false understood about what Bulimia really is.

And here I'm trying to help people having a true figure about Bulimia. 
Not even a specialist in eating disorder could feel and talk about this theme in the way that I do. I wasn´t able to find an article, a documentary and neither a film that approach it next to my vision.

People are aware of some truths, but they don´t really know most of it.

The important thing here is to understand what happen in the body and in the mind of some who has Bulimia. In a such way this illness it´s not only related to a physical appearance, but also to emotional treats

The fear of getting fat is always present, but there are other facts even or more important that can influence and disturb someone who has bulimia.

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